Dancing Weirdos

I have bad dreams lately. Really bad dreams. Not the one where somethings chase you, or the creepy slimy one--but more like scary dreams. I have not yet found any dreamcatcher in Indonesia. I really need one. I would like to have one. I think I'm gonna order it from ebay, what do you think? Should I need one?
I'm currently drooling over:

1. James Stewart, Alexis Georgoulis, Russel Wong, Karl Urban, Simon Pegg and of course Alexander Skarsgard
2. tights, black, white, grey, tank tops, boots, red doc martens, my diy crop flower top
3. dreamcatcher, well obviously
4. My Life In Ruins, Star Trek. (seriously, My Life In Ruins couldn't get out of my head)
5. chictopia.com and tumblr.com
6. WINTER VACATION! My family planning to go to Hong Kong next week for five days, how cool is that? And I still have my Singapore Dollars to convert to be Hong Kong Dollars! And its winter! I'm going to buy boots there! Yeay!
7. Stephen Fry: The Liar
8. Accoustic songs, especially City and Colour's songs
9. Cool rings like this and this and this from studdedhearts blog (that have been repost to tumblr, with credits of course, and reblogged to my tumblr)
10. WODE by BOUDICCA perfume! omg omg omg I WANT THIS SO BADLY SERIOUSLY.
    

that's James and Gloria Stewart. James Stewart is the guy whom I drooling for lately. He acted in tons of great movies, one of them which I like is The Shop Around The Corner, its the remake of the 20's movie (forgot) and the basic story of Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks' movie You've Got Mail. He's very charming, quiet and tall. Gloria is his wife, his only wife. He never had any wife before her and when she passed away he didn't go and marry another woman, he stayed alone until the day he passed away. Their marriage is the kind of marriage that I want.

Well, signing off, its 3:38 now. PS: nacil's birthday party pictures tomorrow :)

Goodbye Grissom

It had been an enlightening shower this afternoon. It was because I finally realized what I'm going to be and what major should I take. I'm going to take Information Engineering and Media (NTU) hopefully or IT (ITB). Why I choose those subjects? Because I think I'm in love with Media and something that has to do with technology. Obviously I like standing in front of my laptop for hours and hours. So, why not go to those subjects? And in five or eight years from now, hopefully, the world would turn into better place that use technology to improves our lives.

went to Shoe Workshop yesterday. It was fun. But a bit tiring. I learned how to paint shoes (obviously) and I painted one! It was grey, but with it has pink diamonds. Its not really cute or something that you can wear with formal clothes, but its something that you can wear everyday. I really am proud of it.

I want that so badly. Its Ralph Steadman's hand bag. He's an awesome painter. He's just... wonderful. I love his paintings. I love his drawings.

Oh, I didn't went to Brightspot. Instead I went to Nacil's birthday bash. Told about it later, with pictures. So, gotta study now. Adios

(click this to go to his "fancy goods" web)

I Guess I'll Call It a Life

I cut my hair impulsively. Well, not really. But it wasn't a month-thinking, it was more like "Okay my hair is long and doesn't have style, I should cut my hair. Oh and also I need bangs". But it turned out to be good. At first I was mad because I cut my hair to short but when I asked my friends, they seemed to not recognized that I've cut my hair at all.

I'm sick. Mentally and physically. Well, I'm tired mentally and sick physically. I've been drinking pills. I'm so tired right now. Tired mentally and physically. I want to be fine. I want to be healthy. I want to be... free.

Saturday is Nacil's dinner party, which I'm gonna attend. I've bought a special dress to attend her birthday dinner. Its not all pretty and all formal, just a good black dress. With shoulder-padded beads-covered. It's a bit mature way, but its a good and pretty darn cheap dress. But I miss shopping time with Mum. Haven't got anytime for daughter-mum shopping time. I think I'm gonna do it in Brightspot Market.

So anyway, since there's no other thing that I could talk about, signing off. x

found the picture at this link

Morning, Chicago

Its been awhile. But don't think that I abandon this web by purpose. I'm just busy and writing while uploading photos just take too much time, so usually I only signed in tumblr.

I just got back from Singapore. I went to an edu trip there, visited numerous of great top 200 universities in the world, NUS, NTU, SIM, SMU and Lasalle. I didn't visit Lasalle, though, because I took the Science tour, the one who took Social tour went to Lasalle. I did see the building of Lasalle, it was beautiful, work of art.

Some of the pics:

I made great photos. I love those times, although I was sick. I felt like I wanted to vomit, but I didn't. And my stomach ached. I'm fine now.

So... nothing else to say. Although I miss those time. So... see you

Though It Hurts To Make It On Your Own

Nothing feels better to me than the sun when it meets the ocean at the early spring. Already bright, but still caught the dark from the last winter. Its breathtaking. And the mixed-up smell. I never lived near the beach when it happens, but I can imagine its unique scent.

And the truth is, my mood kinda mix of those feeling. There are some parts that bright, filled with happy things and fun things. But the others... they are still cold. Sometimes I couldn't bear it. When I couldn't, I yelled. I complained.

And forgive me, mon ami, if I yelled at you for some reason or no reason at all. Life is making me mad and helpless, pointless. If it isn't because of random awesome things like music and books and great laughs from friends, I wouldn't survive.

"I got a broken smile and arrogant lie." is pretty much what happens to me lately. Its what I called reality. Nothing beats the sudden decrease mood of mine. Really, nothing. I hope life gets better. I hope. Surely hope.

I know I whines a lot. Like a real lot. But this because I'm not the kind of girl that you can find nodding to the rules, I'm the kind of girl that goes out of those rules, not really break it but just, not really doing it. I realized that I'm not the kind of girl that could go to the formal school and study things, I don't memorize things, I understand things; but its too late now. I'm 15 and an 11 grade student, its irreversible now.

Best wishes,

D

PS: I miss the sea. A lot. Help?